The Great Divide

Summer of 2017, class 12th board results have been released and every 12th passout now, is confused and is looking for various courses and college options available to them. It was that time of the year when every fresh 12th passout student was making promise to be in touch with his/her classmates. Each and every one of them are happy and excited to start a new chapter of their life. Everyone is exchanging numbers, some are getting emotional and some are treating this moment as yet a normal one. I belong to the last category. With a heavy heart and a big smile on our face, we all went to our school for one last time to collect our certificates and marksheet. Only one month after the school was over and we were in our respective colleges, all our friends turned into only contact numbers in our phones and wishing each other 'Happy Birthday' was the only communication we started having with them. People say that 'Time heals' but what they don't tell us is that 'Time tells you your importance in someone else's life'. So what do we call this. Can we say that all those promises were fake? Or do we say that we move on from old friends or people when we meet new ones? Well, what I think is that once we are done with our schools and get exposed to the real world, we start taking people for granted. We get in contact with the ones we think are or can be helpful to us. We give more priority to the ones we currently are with, because now proximity defines your friendship or relationship more than anything. Why do you think long-distance relationships fail? Because our generation values proximity and physical attachment more than the emotional intimacy. I'm not at all demotivating or trying to scare my loved ones who are in a long-distance, I'm just sharing my observation and experiences regarding the same. Because of less emotional attachment, the qualities like loyalty and trust are so rare to find. Anyways, let me share something about myself.

Unlike most of my friends, I was pretty clear about what I wanted to do. Hostel! Yes, I just wanted to live in hostel...away from everyone and everything I had. I knew back then that it would be difficult for me to adjust myself in the hostel surroundings but irrespective of any pros and cons, I decided to go. So, I got myself enrolled in a reputed B-school of India and got admission there by clearing the interview. Coming from a very reserved and protective family, I was a bit scared and nervous but I didn't let that expression come on my face. After all the registration formalities, I got my room keys. I shifted my stuff into my room and was checking nearby rooms when I saw a tall, healthy guy approaching towards me. The first thought in my mind was that seniors are here for ragging us already and that too an MBA guy! BUT, turned out that he was my new roommate and not any senior. I met him, helped him with shifting his stuff and getting settled and believe it or not, it took us no time to mix up with each other. He is a great guy! 

Day 1 of the college, all excitedly, we both were getting ready for our first day just when I realised that we both don't have a hairbrush! We were running late for the class but hairbrush was an urgency, so I just ran towards the room adjacent to ours. There, I met a new guy and asked him if he can share his hairbrush with me which he was completely okay with. I made a new friend there. After the classes, we met again and had a good chat over food. We found out that we were from same state only and moreover, we two were pretty similar in likes and dislikes as well. In no time, we became great friends. Eating together, playing for the same team, going for a trek and what not...even if I didn't want to go, he'll just pull me into it. I used to run to him if I had any problem with anything, and this guy actually had a solution for it! 'Kabhi zaahir nahi karta tha lekin meri parwaah bohot karta tha...' 

Things were great until the second year began. The second year of my college life was a big lesson of my life. My dear friend is now in a relationship with this girl who is from our college whom I don't like much. But, I never showed it! He was happy with her girlfriend and I was happy with mine back then. Now, we 4 started hanging out together. After a short span of time, I realised that mine and his' have some issues with each other but they acted like everything is good. But they couldn't act for long. Things became evident and my only concern was my friend going away from me because of someone else. Unfortunately, my biggest fear turned into reality! July 30, 2019...I was upset with him but never thought that we'll be meeting and even talking for the last time! I hugged him and went back to my room. From the very next day, the 4 of us were now only two 2s. He stopped talking to me...and sadly, one day I got to know that he was not in talking terms with me because apparently his girlfriend is upset and doesn't like me. I was shattered! Had nothing to say! I just could feel my heart cracked and nothing else. And this behaviour of him made me hate him, we started ignoring each other completely...not even eye contact...felt like we didn't even exist in each other's eyes. And the WORST part, now, mine and his' are back on good terms whereas we both, just not ready to even talk. This man ego. the actual enemy was not any misunderstanding but this man ego. Even today, I miss him...and I pray that he realise that how much he means to me. You might think why didn't I talk? Why didn't I say sorry? The reason was he was not the same guy he was when we first met because if he was the same, he would never have stopped talking to me...he would've understood me and moreover, he would've never let me go because of someone else. He changed...but not for good. He was influenced by his 'love'. Even if I had said sorry, things wouldn't have gone back to same as they used to be! 

'Socha tha falak tak ka safar tay karenge...tune toh 4 kadam pe hi sath chhod diya bhai! Lekin saala tujhe rokta bhi kis haq se...na tu Titu tha aur na hi main Sonu! Yahan toh har tareeke se teri Sweety ki jeet hui aur main akela hi reh gaya...! Aaj bhi log poochte hain toh keh deta hu ki bhool gaya hu tujhe lekin aaj bhi jab phone bajta hai toh dil se sochta hu ki kaash tera hi call ho aur ek baar...sirf ek baar tu mujhe bhai keh kar bulaye...kaash!'